Writing What You Want!

July is XB preparation month. It’s been a long time coming, but I guess everything happens for a reason. I also hope to have Calling Ms. Kensington out at the same time. It’ll be like 150 pages and it’ll be known as BOOK 3 in the Xander Barns Series. Now, if you don’t want to read it you don’t need to to follow the series of Xander and Marisa, it all comes out eventually. It’s a fun little addition to the series though…in my opinion.

On another note, I’m kind of happy it took the time it did for me to write Forever Calling You. This past year has been sort of a market research for me. Information that ended up clearing the vision for the series. God knows it would have went a completely…..different route. Not that I changed my style but sometimes too much of a certain thing makes it boring. I remember writing Calling You and I loved it, but it had a very, very, very different response from readers. They thought the story was going one way, which was a tad more romantic and I basically took everybody down a rabbit hole filled with chaos and confusion. I remember some of the reviews, but one in particular. There was this girl (I’m assuming) from Australia who was so disappointed and that my book left a bitter taste in her mouth because of where I took the story. I’ll never forget reading her review and of course I got a 1/5 stars which I’m not unaccustomed to getting because I’m not your typical story teller. But her 1/5 and review killed me, because I don’t want to leave a bitter taste in anyones mouth.

Maybe in a few years I’ll be like screw everybody, I’m a genius!
Just kidding!

Anyways….I’ve come to a conclusion in my two plus years writing ‘novels’ for a living, that this is a business at the end of the day and if I don’t make my readers happy I’ll be back serving pizza in an oven of a restuarant for ten hour shifts (my old job of seven years) wondering where I went wrong.
60/40…..sixty percent keep the readers happy and forty percent keep me happy with my fun…crazy…style.

thanks for reading this.

XB Series
1) Always Wanted
2) Always Wanted Forever
3) Calling Ms. Kensington
4) Forever Calling You

Xander’s coming…..

It’s time to put an end to the misery…my misery….I set a date of August 11th 2015 to give me enough time. What can I say, I couldn’t have written this book last year, I didn’t have it in me.
But nowsadiffernstoray…….yeah I won’t be sleeping for the next month…but oh well. :-) I hope you all will like it. But I’m not ready to say goodbye to this guy…he’s crazy like that.

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Some XB passages…..Mu-ha-ha-ha

Warning. You know the drill.

“Hey, Doc. Keep your dick away from my boyfriend’s ass. He’s got the clap, you know. There’s sores and everything. Got his special asshole cream right here.” I pull out a tube of hand cream from my bag and wave it out. I pull my arm back inside the car and pretend to ‘read’ the instructions out loud. “Apply every four hours and if the problem persists visit a proctologist, right away.”

They shake hands, although I think it’s reluctant on behalf of the doctor, because you know I know he wanted a piece of Xander’s ass in exchange for whatever deal they had going on. Xander makes his way back to the SUV, swaying his hips like the evil, narcissistic playboy he is. The doctor’s eyes are nowhere else but on Xander’s rear. Honestly, I see drool on the side of his lip. He wants a piece of that ass, right now….

Something like that….

Writing to music?

Working on side by sides…CMK….FCY….right now.
I like listening to the band ‘FILTER’ while writing CMK and for parts of FCY….it’s perfect music for the types of scenes I’m writing. Different scenes though, different music, it can range from something sexy R&B-ish to full on dark and creepy.
Although, I do prefer darker music.
In fact the main song I listen for CMK is this dark….eerie track by ‘SNOW GHOSTS’ called ‘Lost at Sea’
Here’s the link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WT8lzMpAaSk
I love this song.
Everything intertwines…Xander will make an appearance in CMK.

Working at a snail’s pace….what is wrong with me?

Now it’s time to work on CMK (Calling Ms. Kensington). I keep going back and forth with this book, whether or not i should do it, especially if the market isn’t a lot, but my heart breaks a little every time i think about typing **CANCELED** on it’s Goodreads page.
Some people don’t like Demetria, but she’s a part of the story. I love her wacky stalker like tendencies. She’s so fucked in the head, my kind of girl.
My fav!
She’s a crazy bitch and I’ve got some funny things in store for her. I’m laughing just thinking about it.
The story is almost done, and if i must so say myself it leads nicely into XB4.
On another note, I know I’m unusually slow. It’s so weird, because other authors are coming out with books left and right and I feel like I’m moving like at a snails pace. I probably am. It is honestly driving me crazy. I lose my mind over this at least a thousand times a day.
I should have had a million books out by now. It’s been a year…a freaking year…..(I’m so shocked right now)
Watch out for new work coming from me. I’ll have a million books coming out in no time.
No short books. I hate short books. Learned my lesson.
Ugh…I hate short books….question though….what would you guys define as a short book?
Less than 100, 150, 200, 250, 275 or 300???


Always Wanted Forever (Previously published as Xander Barns Series: Always Wanted, Wanted Always, Calling Forever)

This is an Author’s Cut and Special Edition, but essentially it is the exact same book as my XB Series: Books 1-3, but shorter.

It’s up on Amazon, Kobo and Google Play And Barnes and Noble right now. So if you don’t have Wanted Always or Calling Forever you can get both copies in Always Wanted Forever.

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Working on some X right now. This book is taking forever but I feel like it’s for the best. I’m coming up with things I wouldn’t have come up with last year.

A few things this book has to be, rereadable… I’m talking ten repeat reads a month… that’s the goal. It has to be…. fall to the floor funny, heart melty, real but crazy. We’re going on a journey with these crazy nuts. X and M are not one layer people. These characters have to evolve, it can’t be the same thing over and over again… that could get boring, repetitive -blah-blah-blah…. skim worthy.

I’ve skimmed boring books before…. and I’d hate that to happen to one of my books. Hell it probably already has… oh well, let’s hope we can extinguish that potential/current problem by GIVING YOU GUYS SOME AWESOME CONTENT!

Here’s a little bit….

The man is strange.

I can’t put my finger on what his damage really is though.

All I know is that he likes having sex… a lot, and that’s not exactly a bad thing but in Xander’s case, the guy shows off on a daily basis with the amount of times he can ejaculate. Maybe he’s lying… maybe he’s trying to impress me. If he’s trying to impress me, that shit will not work for a number of reasons.

My panty boy has issues and it stems beyond blowing his load multiple times a day and loving it…. but I don’t know where his problems begin and end.

So is it my duty as his most trusted ally/BFF to help him break free of the fuck nut that he really is? Or do I run away?

The bed is comfy, plush and our sides sink perfectly into the mattress and comforter. We’re eye to eye, my brown to his blue. “How’d you make it to twenty nine years old?”

His lip twitches. “Here’s a valuable piece of information, bestie. I’m not a weak person. You only know one side of me.”

“Yeah, the disturbing one.” I roll to my back and close my eyes. “Why do I have to be the one who knows the real you?”

“Well,” he starts and then stops for a few seconds. “Because you’re lucky, that’s why.”

I open my eyes and stare at the white ceiling. “Yeah, I’m the lucky one.”

He chuckles. “Why don’t I believe you?”

Because you know me… I think and my heart beats like crazy. My stomach churns, feeling bubbles swim inside. I cover my belly with my hands hoping it’ll act like a barrier. I don’t want him hearing my nerves. I’m ashamed of them. I’m not supposed to feel like this.

The mattress sinks. Xander leans over me and grabs my ponytail delicately. “Answer me. Why don’t I believe you, Marisa?”

Book Covers…?

So I don’t know if any of you have noticed but I do my own book covers, that’s why they change a lot. I’m a novice, but at the moment I have to do them myself before I can get them professionally done and have one cover be it for a book.

Anyways I’ve been working on a few concepts for my the next two books in my Young Annabelle Series, and I have put a few covers out but after time I’d get dissatisfied with them…..so here I go again….round fifty, here goes nothing and I hope this time will be the last time for these covers……I hope, I pray…please cover Gods give this girl a bone, or something…..




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